Contemplating a breast reduction. I’ve had large breasts since the 4th grade, because my body decided to be a show off and bloom way early. I’ve always had trouble fitting into clothes, finding decent bras [sports and regular], and being self-confident. I cannot look at my breasts when they’re naked. I feel they’re disgusting and sag. When I lay down, they sag on either side of me into my arm pits. And they’re just plain heavy. The stories I’ve read on tumblr and other testimonies, the girls have much bigger breasts than I do. I used to have size DD, but I worked out and lost a full cup size. I still want them smaller and I’m pretty sure this is the smallest they will get.
There are multiple reasons why I’m fearful of getting a reduction. Hideous scars, lost nipple sensitivity, oddly shaped breasts, unable to breast feed [when the time comes]. I know that if I go through with it, I’ll be much happier because I won’t have anymore pain in my neck/shoulders/back. I currently have to wear two sports bras to run. I have to go up the next size in button down shirts just so I won’t have a gap. I hate when girls say they would love to have my size. Don’t ever wish for bigger breasts. They’re not all that.