On your little "about me" it says you suffer from an OCD. What is it, if you don't mind me asking? :'3
I had trichotillomania, which means I pulled out my hair. I would pull it out from the crown of my scalp. For whatever reason, it felt good, but it was definitely a form of self harm. I went on for years and I had done a lot to help me stop. I went to counseling, I was prescribed prozac [even though I wasn’t depressed], I even started journaling. The journaling is what helped me the most.
I became very serious with my OCD in March 2010 right after my cousin died. I didn’t pull my hair for just over 100 days. Then, I pulled when a stressful situation came up. I kept pulling and then it was worse than it ever had been before. I decided to buckle down and began, again October 23, 2010.
I’m proud to say that I have been successfully 434 days without pulling my hair. I no longer have bald/thin patches, but I do still have the urge to pull my hair. I suppose I always will, but I try and channel my urges into working out or doing something else with my hands. Anyone can overcome anything. <3
“My body is not a representation of my failures, sins, or mistakes. My body is not a sign that I am in poor health, or that I am not physically fit. My body is not up for public discussion, debate or judgment. My body is not a signal that I need your help or input to make decisions about my health or life. My body is the constant companion that helps me do every single thing that I do every second of every day and it deserves respect and admiration. If you are incapable of appreciating my body that is your deficiency, not mine, and I do not care. Nor am I interested in hearing your thoughts on the matter so, if you want to be around me, you are 100% responsible for doing whatever it takes to keep those thoughts to yourself. If you are incapable of doing that I will leave and spend my time with people who can treat me appropriately. Please pass the green beans.”—Avoid Holiday Weight Shame — Ragen (danceswithfat)
I have about ten pound to go. Not too bad, I guess. But I've been pretty lazy the last couple of weeks! I went from 180 to 155, which I'm really proud of, though. And I don't do anything super special. Just moderate daily exercise and healthy eating. 8)
So i just read your ask to the3skinny and WOW I CAN RELATE SO MUCH. Firstly, congrats on your weight loss, 20lbs is amazing and your CW is my UGW. :) When I told my family about how I've lost 40lbs already, they responded saying "15 more pounds and you'll be perfect." Don't let it get to you okay? It's really annoying but as long as you're good with yourself who cares! Congrats again. -Tiff
Thanks! Congrats to you for losing 40lbs! That’s amazing!! <3
hey, i saw the ask you left on t3h skinny's blog and just wanted to tell you not to listen to your grandma! i'm pretty sure it's in the grandma/old people rulebook to give a ridiculous amount of backhanded compliments. my nana used to bust out, "you have such a pretty face, you'd be really pretty if you lost that weight" and "why are you eating that? don't you want to be skinny like your friends or get a boyfriend?" seriously, you are not the only one. just ignore her <3
Aw, thanks so much! I grew up with my grandparents, and even as an adolescent I was told that I always “pudge up” in the summer. Gave me a real bad complex about my body and I even started an eating disorder in high school. I overcame it when I joined the military after they showed me healthy ways to involve my body and mind. Now, I do adventure racing and I LOVE it!